Beating That Stupid Scales Butt!!!

I’ve been slacking on my blogging as you can tell but I’m back. And I’ve lost 4 pounds!!! I’ve also been slacking on my weight loss giving up on everything and just eating like there’s no tomorrow. Eating stuff that or bad or maybe sending me to the bathroom (not good). But I’m in a competition with my two best-friends right now to lose 2 pounds this week, which I ended losing 4 pounds instead. I’m pretty happy.

I feel like this time its different you know. Every time I’m going on a journey to lose weight I’m always like “I think this is it I think I’m going to do well this them” but unfortunately what happens is that I ended up starting but never finishing it. And my mom is always on my butt about it cause she knows how I am. But I honestly think this time is seriously it. This week I’ve been going to the gym a lot and eating right and controlling my portions and it has worked out for me a lot. I only drink water, sometimes seltzer water (if I have any). I don’t drink any juice or soda. My biggest battle is sweets. Oh My Gosh I just love candy and cupcakes, and cheesecakes. There’s this new place opening up near my job called the “Crumbs” which sells cupcakes and they look soooooo good. Thats definitely going to be a challenge for me. But than again I’m always broke.

I go to Planet Fitness to workout and the one thing I hate about that area is that once you step out of the gym, you smell the fresh bakery right across the street. Like what the hell!!! The bakery is a tease for those who are trying to lose weight. But i try my hardest to ignore it and just keep on walking.

I decide to change my blog page title to “A Black Girl’s Token To A New Life” because I feel like I received a token to experience something new like when you first go on a roller coaster for the first time, to see the brighter side of a healthier life. Thats what I want for me. Hopefully that makes some kind of sense. But anyways I’m going to keep doing what I need to do to make myself happy.

I want to feel confident about myself and be proud of myself and not feel like a downier. I want to be able to love myself even more and I feel like the enemy is the foods that we find so freaking good thats also killing us in the inside. Diabetes runs in my fathers side of the family and I want to decrease that chance of getting it, and I also want to decrease the chances of every getting diseases that can affect my life or even death. I want to live and see the world. Yes I’m a dreamer, a girl can dream you know.

Well until next time,

Ciao, Fritzna

I’m Baaaack

Hey guys, I’m officially back. I would have blogged sooner when I came back from my vacation but I was dealing with a personal matter which I won’t get into details.  But I’m here and ready to move on with my life. As you can see from the picture I have my crochet braids that I was talking about. I would have made a video of how to install them but I only did this to get my mind off of things going on. I’m sorta planning to do a mini installment on the crochet braids probably next month (cause I’m planning to take them out).

Weight-loss & Exercise   

The way people eat in haiti is definitely different from how americans eat. The time I spent done there my family and I ate 2 meals a day which was something I’m not use to cause I eat food like there’s no tomorrow. But this actually helped with my weight-loss. Because in the mornings its usually haitian bread with avocados (not mixed together), or haitian bread with eggs. Than for dinner (which was always around 2:00pm) it was always some kind of rice with either chicken or fish with there homemade bean sauce. When I arrived back home the next morning I checked my weight and I lose about 14 pounds!!! When I left I was 246 pounds and come back to be 232 pounds. I was super excited because I never seen my weight under 235. But now that I was back home I sorta started eating like I use to. But I somehow was able to maintain that weight even though I wasn’t working out. But I started to slip a bit. I would go from 232 to 233 back to 232 to my weight now which is 235. I was like “I cannot go down to 246.”

I started doing INSANITY the same day I started school this month. And I’m going to be straight up with you….this is hard, especially if your obese. I’m obese and some of the moves were hard to do and it was hard to catch up on. But it makes you sweat!!!! I tried following the workout schedule but I would end up doing one day skip two days. And I only did this for a week. So I’m restarting on monday, and following the schedule. And of course I will post before and after picture of my progress every 30 days since it is a 60 day program. With the meal plans is going to be a hard one because there’s nothing really good that I have in my house hold. And I don’t have any cash to go grocery shopping or anything like that at the moment. So I have to watch what I’m eating and doing with whatever I have in my house hold.

Vacation 

The vacation experience was something I’m never going to forget. Why I say that is because it wasn’t the greatest first vacation. My first plane ride wasn’t bad at all. I use to be a bit scared with the whole 9/11 attacks with the plane crashing into the buildings, or that something will happen to the plane while were in the air. I’m afraid of heights so you can kind of understand what I mean. But everything went smoothly which I thank god for. There’s so much dirty roads everywhere and uneven roads that the rides were very uncomfortable. The worst ride in haiti was when my family and I had to travel from Port-Au-Prince to my mom’s birthplace Cap-Haïtien. We get up at 2am in the morning and get to the place where there’s a van or buses that drives down there. Leave probably at 3am and get to my mom’s town at 2pm or 3pm. So thats like almost 12 or 13 hours or so. And your pretty much squeezed to death in the van with other people who’s going to Cap-Haïtien. Which sucked a lot. You don’t understand how much my butt was numb from sitting for hours (never again). My family and I almost died on our way back to Port-Au-Prince which I’m very thankful that everyone was ok. In my opinion haiti has ninja mosquitos. I know it sounds fun but they do!!! The first I got there and went into my room I was attack. My brothers and I were just fresh meat. At first I didn’t ever think it was mosquitos and I thought it was something else but when it was my last week before I went home from my second location I finally seen those ninjas. More than 5 of them. Now I just have marks on me from all the crazy itching the 3 weeks I was done there. Haitian people call you white down there when you not from there country. This lady my mom know kept calling me white and I refused to talk to that lady down there. She was pissing me off everyday. I had a few good times. I was just happy to get home to the states. I’ll post some pictures up later in the week from my vacation.

Minor Sickness And Update On Fitness Journey

Soooo my morning has been rough with some sickness because of this food I ate saturday and sunday but I’m feeling better. Now continuing on……………

First off let me just say I hadn’t had the best fitness journey so far. My choose in food haven’t been the greatest either. Of course there’s no excuse but I’m trying to get on back on track. Since I slacked off I felt really lazy, very tired, and less motivated and it has been a challenge.

Where has the motivation gone?

I have to get that back!!!! If I want to change the way my lifestyle is I got to make the changes. I get lazy and procrastinate all the time, I think everyone does. I seriously need someone to kick my a$$ to get a reality check. Happiness is key and I want that. I don’t want to look at someone and be like “oh there body shape looks so good and I look like this.” I want people to snap there necks when they see me walk by. Well not really actually, my boyfriend will probably have to kill someone which we don’t want!!!! But I want to look good and be healthy too

New Feeling!!

The feeling of enjoyment in stepping into the gym felt very good. Never in a million years would I ever hear that come out my mouth. I guess the new feeling of losing 3 pounds and having a new enjoyment in life changed the way I think. I’m not going to lie I’d rather workout at the gym than in my own home. I feel like I can do more there than I can do at home you know. But I’m doing the best that I can to with that and also eating healthy.